Wednesday, January 15, 2014


Finally watched The Butler last night. Spent a large part of the movie in tears. All the pain that finally buried this "very sensitive" child under alcohol abuse came back last night. The interesting thing to me is how "conservative" I was as child and youth, in that I believed all the myths about America. After WWII, I really believed all the things about America's greatness, its love of freedom and justice and free speech. What the 50s and 60s taught me, finally and painfully, was that the American people were no better or worse than any other nation of people. 

Unrealistic "idealism" is what tortures modern conservatives also. They cling to the past, and they believe all the nonsense they were taught as children. They can't see modern America in a real light, and they are incapable of seeing the "injustices" created by free enterprise or capitalism. I do believe that capitalism is the best method for distributing a nation's wealth as long as the distance between those most and least rewarded does not grow too great. Which it has. 

Sadly, modern Teapublicans can't help "blaming" others for being poor because conservatives cling to the myth of "free will", thus it's easy for them to blame others and to praise themselves. They are controlled by evolutionary forces just as much as the less fortunate are controlled by genes and nurture. Those who succeed usually have a "sense of entitlement". The sense of entitlement describes a psychological or electrochemical state in the brain/body that leads to success. Their "psychological state" is a cause of success rather than an effect of success, and a grown Teapublican can no more take credit for that psychological state of being than a honeybee can take credit for being the queen of the hive. 

This film explores the difference
In my own case, I was driven by pain to try and understand who I was and what made me into the person I was. Success became secondary to that struggle. I was tortured by insecurity and shame. Until I reached the bottom of my personal struggle, trying to escape my worker bee status was next to impossible. It was like trying to climb up a hill of marbles. By the time I did understand the forces that drove me, I was in my 50s, a late start in the rush to earn fame and fortune in the free enterprise system. If only Teapublicans understood their fortunate electrochemical inheritance and quit "being proud" of themselves, we'd have quite a different nation to live in. 

Pardon my length, but simple-mindedness is not one of my strongly evolved characteristics. Complexity of thought comes with the territory of self-understanding. Thus, I am not George Bush and he is not me. Back in the day, however, I'm sure we'd have enjoyed drinking a beer together had we known each other. I enjoyed the company of many a young George Bush in the taverns where I "bought my alcoholism" one drink at a time.


Epiphelion said...

Sounds like you preceded me on the planet by a decade or so, but I can relate to the course of your life. I was raised by WWII vets, and completely bought the American story of that era, right up to puberty in 1968 when I just about spontaneously morphed from an ultra right-wing kid, into a militant anti-war radical. It has been a long, very strange trip since then. I found you blog, as a result of what I considered, at first, a probably futile effort of occasionally browsing Blogger profiles, using "consciousness" as a key word. Although I agree with much of what you said in this post, it was more what you said about your self that prompted this comment. I'd consider you one of the few who are actually running in the race for human, rather than the majority of homo-sapiens who do not seem to have the least clue.
(hmmm, hope I can prove I'm not a robot)

THE SILENT BOOMER/George Thomas said...

Good to hear from you. I also began my blogging career by searching "consciousness". I've let this blog pretty much alone recently. I now make most of my comments on Facebook and I keep a writer's blog, thsilentboomer, that I make entries on more frequently than on aintnogod. I find the factual history of the Cosmos much more beguiling than any other way of understanding the universe.